II
And I understood all that, that was the friendship for which he had dreamed. And now there were many more, helped me to save all the monotony. In many poems and words and dialogues, said happily that this was my world. I do not know, but I did not feel separated from my parents about all of it. Had begun to write poems to a kind of meditation or reasoning, what would it eternal happy about what happened to me, but to find many outlets, many more, not one, but outputs in the sense of finding more good things to do, I guess I first thought that life was much easier and this would always be with me to help.
I think he was as a means to vent about what happened in Murcia. I think there got to see everything so disappointed that I came to feel immersed in a storm, in which I feel lost today. The fault is not there, I know, maybe that had aroused or that he had been reborn. I think it had come completely wrong and guess what still strikes me now, sometimes I start to think about many things in life that have not I know, and I get depressed. Not much reason to be so, but is that what I think is that I still think it will be later. Many other times I am convinced of the need for the dance for me. I usually go every Sunday, but my mother would sometimes lie, must be in the contrast of the environment. There I feel different. I do not know which girl told me she went there to find girlfriend or boyfriend. The truth is I do not know how, I never knew that experience, I know I'm afraid. I think I'm too shy. One of the darkest memories that I brought from Murcia, which is what I said today I still lasted, there, I think I started to pursue happiness for myself, my own happiness, and what was wrong with pleasure. But that was a plus.
needed to tell you. I think especially now why am I so shy with girls, and have them as friends. At most I'll give it a kiss. And I get so red and I remain silent when a guy tells me about a relationship with the woman. Whether I heard my brother's a platonic love, I think I'm too platonic. I do not know if it would be the right word narcissistic. In Vilariño, I move a lot, or anywhere else, maybe take that intention, but I am of those who enjoy looking at them. Or even get to touch her leg. O see some girl under skirts. This is something I never told anyone but a priest at Fatima. Whenever I watch TV I long to see some naked. I remember better when alone.
sexual I think the problem comes in stages I, after a long, quiet. The truth is that I find it very difficult to master.
communicate every day, making each week a life, I think it is improving a bit. But I feel like I'm in a bad period and the pain I feel at not seeing subject, makes me depressed a little . This no doubt helps to heat the atmosphere to irritate me, but I think I've learned a bit to set it aside, but in this moment I feel very bad. I was always convinced it was the lack of distraction, distraction because I do not like to be all morning or afternoon doing something alone.
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