I do not remember what I said, I must agree, but I often wondered if my mother had been educated among nuns, and my father, why were so far? .
I refused to believe, rather, did not believe that they were to blame. He always told me when I was young, lived in another era. I did not mean it was outdated, no, just saying that maybe I did not have any preparation. She told me many times that it was good to go to church. And it was because I was home every day could attend. But now I realize that this issue makes me feel very at the foot of it. I always like to thank God, I think it's my fault for all the trouble, but He is always with me. I trust in Him, He taught me everything I know and what I have. But going to Mass every day is something with which I disagree. Well, leave it, do not go to offend those who do think that way. I agree that it is good to go every day, but now, when you're young like me do not see the point, my point of view I think it's quite small and can not be otherwise. I said many times: "I hit a life of kings." I held my peace. Or the old women out there who did so with intent to gossip. "Your mother must be happy with you. You make the beds, you sweep the kitchen, peel potatoes." Each time he hated most everything. The first few days, yes, I was glad and maybe I was a little sleepy. But I woke up any fight of my mother. Many times, I had right to be angry, but the evil I saw was not put in a position to hear or listen, and that was not so good. I was afraid to answer and was never agreed to be that way. Or that "you stick a life ESCON" I said sometimes Quico. Well, tell me lately, and we only heard it, I do not remember, twice. Yesterday, because when the movie ended I washed my feet and went to bed. He went through the door and saw me lying. Then he told me. And today. I thought I was the one, but it was twelve and went into the room to write a little. And he told me. But to me it costs more to be like him because he looks good, very good, can find a job better than me and he was not disquieted mind when mom screams.
says live well, if I knew what happened, but it is he who helps me the most. A few days ago we went to a funeral, I wanted to go in line, but I prefer to go with him, and went with him. Upon entering the church wanted to go forward, but he said they climb up and went with him.
I never liked to sing high because I do very badly, but there did. There were some moments where I laughed, love. I know you should not do that, but there was he and I had not realized that I wanted. Then, at the time of communion, I wanted to go, but he said that with all this road of sin, a joke, I could not. Communing by him in coexistence. And I understood that position. Wanted to help break a bit with all that union that I had taught my mother. When we went up home with him happy. By throwing the road going to and fro on the road. "If on the road, get ready ..." - he told me. I was satisfied. But now it can not be so. and I think that the day I miss him, not by my side, will bloom this attachment that I begin to hate. I hope that the tell help me Irlo forgotten little by little, or away from me. "Tranqui, tranqui!" - Quico says sometimes. If I could say that too!. But I still startling to see her in a bad mood or angry. It seems as if always take with me. I do not know why everything is well. At this point, I can not find meaning in life. I remember a lot of Ana, I miss him, I think this is all the love I can offer. I like writing letters and receiving them too, so I know that if I ever want to get up the moral, I can sit and read some, and remember at the same time. Ana lately are those of the most lame, I do not know what it is. The truth is that I like all, although many think and I still think they are too pretty for me. I do not know if I feel I Fall in Love. Just like me. Being with them, talk to them, feel them at my side, at least I know if I ever have to call heavy, tell me so in peace. Before I liked Odila, a girl nearby. Until it all happened. The time I drove it, he found very few times, it was not much given to talking a while, maybe because I always found in places of transit.
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